Many know that doctrine and theology is a huge passion of mine. I study on my own, because well, I can't go to seminary, I'm a wife and mother first and it also cost a lot of money. But sometimes I forget this fact,and I get caught up in doctrine drama online. It wouldn't be so bad if I could somehow control my emotions when my family needs me. My husband will ask me something,or my teenage sons will ask things like "can we have dinner mom? and I with a frown faced, roll my eyes, take deep breaths, and treat them as if they are asking something from me,that they have no right be asking. Isn't this awful?? This is not right. And diffidently, doesn't give God Glory.
So how am I to change? I know that I will have to depend heavily on the Lord. Really only he can help me in this area. I have asked myself and pondered on the reasons why many women are not into doctrine and theology? Why is this? Its so strange to me. To me fashion,the latest recipe's, housework ideas,everything most wives and mothers are into.. I am not. I really try to immerse myself into it, but I have a real hard time. As of right now I'm going through a book with some ladies from my church, all about Glorifying God and adorning the Gospel through wifery,and motherhood. By using Titus 2 as an example. It really is an awesome book, and it does encourage me.
Now to end this entry.. I'm now going to use scripture for my basis,of prioritizing my roles as mother and wife, and backboarding my love for doctrine and theology.
Mark 8:35 For whoever would save his life will loose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake and the gospels will save it.
So..I give up my wants, wills, dreams, and ambitions,and surrender to the place where God has put me for the sake of adorning the gospel. So the needs of my husband and children come first,before my selfish ways do. And I pray the Lord helps me with this, Because My God knows how much I love him, and how much I don't.
please pray for me.
Christina
Oh Christina, I can relate to this post. I struggle with not prioritizing my time. I remember many times Emily coming to me and asking for lunch and I would continue clicking away on my laptop, not look at her and reply, "In a minute honey, I'm working." It didn't take long before I realized how I had idolized the computer and social networks, neglecting my family and God. Thanks to the work of the Holy Spirit, of course. I took a break from facebook (about a year), repented and started to focus on my role as wife and mom. I've been back on facebook now for about a year and a half, but before signing up I new the Lord was asking me to do it wisely and for His glory. Sounds like a cheesy excuse, I know, but I knew I had to make some changes before delving back in. I wanted to use it as a means to share the gospel with friends and family. So, all that to say, you don't necessarily have to give up your passion and dream to study theology. In fact, I highly recommend you don't. We are to continue to grow in godliness and that is done through His word and understanding His character. But, do it with balance. As the Lord brings you to mind, I will pray you find balance in your day as you continue to grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm a woman that loves studying doctrine and theology. I realize it is something that the Lord gave me an interest it and I think it is important to utilize it for the edification of other believers as well as be a better witness to those who are unbelievers. Though I am not a mother or even a wife yet, I do agree that one needs to prioritize just how we are going to use "all that God has given us to do".
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